one more day of work. i don't want to go? i feel like an outcast at work. like there are cliques at work and i am just the disapproving outsider. and i get the urge yet again to punch them all in the face. yesterday a lady returned (all on one card) 145 books through the returns slot and i just wanted to cry. then punch this lady in the face. why i am i feeling so aggressive all the time? what is the point? why do i feel like crying and just staying in bed and not facing the world. i want to gym it today but already i have wasted too much time on here to go.
i feel like a need a break. i need to get away. the boy leaves in 2 weeks.. i dont know how i feel about that yet. i have not thought about it too hard, and between us it has been really good, not fighting as much, feeling happy and content with him. so meh.
oh and happy late halloween. how i wish we celebrated it more sometimes. an excuse to dress up and eat lollies? tell me more!
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